"Last First Kiss"
Let’s just appreciate how this song starts off with Liam singing the precious white boy sexts you know he has sent before (Baby I, I wanna know/What you think when you’re alone/Is it me? Yeah/Are you thinking of me? Yeah). Because that is exactly what this is. Flashbacks to awkward fake flirting sophomore year of high school (Do you remember summer 09?).
Also. larry af. Harold: Girl, what would you do?/Would you wanna stay/If I were to say and then Louis Maybe I just gotta wait/Maybe this is a mistake/I’m a fool, yeah/ Baby I’m just a fool, yeah
I’ve listened to this song so many times, cheesily danced and sang along, but I didn’t pay enough attention to the verses.
It’s such an awkward high school love/lust experience though. The awkward flirting, the risk-gain analysis of exposing yourself to a friend like that (I identify with it from a queer angle because how many times did I stay up running through my mind if I should tell my girl friend(s) what I thought about them, how many sleepless nights and over-analyzing of texts did I put in before deciding to come out or crush out with them. The piles of worries and running through every possible scenario and if it would end in humiliation, defeat, or succeed (Niall: I’m afraid you’ll run away/If I tell you what I wanted to tell you).
And we never find out what the narrator decides. The whole song takes place in their head. Did they tell her? What was the response? How much did that matter? So much high school love-lust anxiety.